Depression has snuck up on me again. I wish this would have happened over the summer, though it kind of did (but not as intense…), because it would have been so much easier to sleep through it. Now I work eight hours a day, and require all the time I’m not working to sleep which is problematic because I’m an adult and have responsibilities like feeding myself and cleaning up after myself and I just wanna let it all go but I can’t, I just can’t let myself and that is so frustrating so I put up with staying up until eleven and waking up at six with thirty minutes to get ready for the day and being cranky… ugh. I took a mental health day, today. I decided at the last minute. The first day I’ve taken off from work, and I really wanted to save all my days in case my allergies got to intense or I caught something (and for MegaCon weekend, if I go). It just feels like a bag of boulders was dumped on me. I did laugh pretty hard earlier, which was nice, but I feel so tired that I just schlump here and don’t wanna do anything, almost not even watch anything.

UGH

And here I had changed my mind and decided to get another PC. Nope. Not after today. I don’t care if I have to make payments on a Mac. This is fucking ridiculous.

My dad got a new thing for the solar panels and if he does things right we’ll be able to have 50 gallons of hot water at a time and he’s going to hook me up to that so that I don’t have to use gas hot water because it eats it up. I hope he does it soon…

I cooked for the first time on my stove today! I’m making breakfast for the week: sausage and pancakes. 

My days would be so much better if I got a good breakfast in and if all I have to do to achieve that is microwave something then I’m more likely to do it.

I also went to Publix today and am so glad I didn’t buy one frozen microwavable thing. 

I AM SO SLEEPY RIGHT NOW BUT IM CHOKING DOWN A CRISPY CHICKEN CLUB FROM MICKY D’S AND THEN IM GOING TO VACUUM 15 CLASSROOMS LIKE A BOSS

I have this overwhelming urge to write about a young WOC in some big city in a family where her mom is struggling to support her and her possible other siblings and she finds this very ornate broom in a closet one day.

She’s told it belonged to her grandmother.

The gist of it is she discovers she’s a witch. I want it.

oOOOoOoOoOoOoH crap.

I’m vacuuming classrooms tomorrow, that is gonna SUCK. Why did I volunteer to do it???

Oh, right, because I’m married to the dough.